So I was super stressed out about this crazy dilemma. I’m ridiculous, I know.

I ended up actually liking the other CF box — but they only offer an unlimited membership which means wasted money because I know I won’t make it in more than 2ish times a week at most.  I still hope to drop in every once in a while at the other place if my schedule allows — I’m excited for their expansion and I’m curious to see how they grow. And besides, they do have a really cute puppy.

What ended up making the most sense (financially, mentally, physically, etc.) was to drop down to 2x per week at FCCF (or maybe a punch card if I can’t make it 2x) and then just supplement on my own whenever I can fit it in, whether it be CrossFit Endurance or a long run to clear my mind or 30 minutes of Jillian Michaels’ Ripped in 30 DVD.  Hey, you do what you gotta do, even if that means getting yelled at from your TV.

Jillian Michaels

I went back Friday morning and even though I was the VERY LAST ONE (10 rounds of 5 snatches and 30 double unders… and the DUs were NOT my friend), half the class gathered around me to encourage me to finish. I love CrossFit for that very reason.  I definitely wouldn’t get a crowd of people encouraging me to finish my workout at the local globo-gym, that’s for sure.

Playing dodgeball -- photo by Laura Davis Rice (FCCF)

Playing dodgeball — photo by Laura Davis Rice (FCCF)

Then Friday night, Bob and I headed back to the box for the dodgeball Halloween party. It was a much needed evening of good food, new & old CF friends, and lots of balls.

Our winning team, Team H. :) (with Rachael & Eric, great dodgeball teammates)

Our 3rd place winning team, Team H. 🙂 (with Rachael & Eric, great dodgeball teammates)

This is only temporary. It’s 16 months, and it’ll go fast. And I’m not going to stress myself out about getting in exercise. I’ll do what I can, when I can, and I won’t beat myself up if I need to choose sleep, or Bob, or homework, over exercise. I also won’t beat myself up if I choose exercise over sleep or homework if I really need it, either. I’ll find a balance, but it just may take some time to figure it out. And that’s ok.

I don’t have to have everything figured out now. I just need to take one day at a time. One workout at a time. And one paper at a time. 🙂

Oh, and here’s the meal plan for the week:

Monday:  Chicken enchilada stew. Because I have to finish a paper and don’t want to waste time cooking. Also, it’s delicious. (I usually top with avocado & green onions & cilantro).

Tuesday: Salads! With bacon. Because every salad is better with bacon. And maybe even hardboiled eggs and avocado.

Wednesday: Some kind of crockpot pork with roasted broccoli and cauliflower

Thursday: Breakfast for dinner!! Eggs, sweet potatoes, bacon. You really can’t go wrong with this meal choice.

Friday: Some kind of meat (chicken, sausage, etc.?) with sauteed cabbage and Paleo slaw.

Someday I’ll be able to cook more elaborate meals again. But until then, it’s all about finding the simplest food to prepare without a lot of extra ingredients.

Do you have any simple meals that are favorites I could add to my lineup?


On Identity

I have always used whatever I’m into to define myself. When I was in high school, I was a color guard captain and yearbook editor. That became who I was.

In college, I became a SIFE-er. (Enactus, now). That was who I was. I let it define me.

Junior year of college. Our SIFE team won 4th place in the nation & I was on the presentation team.

Junior year of college. Our SIFE team won 4th place in the nation & I was on the presentation team.

After college, I let my first job define me. I was an advertiser. A media nerd. An agency geek. A digital marketer.

And then I started to lose weight, and I became “a runner.” and a Weight Watcher.

My first 5k, September 2011.

My first 5k, September 2011.

And in March of 2012, I found CrossFit. And then I became one of those crazy CrossFitters. AND I was a Flower City CrossFitter. My home was FCCF.

At FCCF with Maeve, my back to back box buddy for life. :-)

At FCCF with Maeve, my back to back box buddy for life. 🙂

But now, I’m a grad student. And I’m having a difficult time with my gym decision because I have to reconcile “who I am” at this stage in my life.

Because really, I’m way more than a CrossFitter. or a runner. or a digital marketer. or a reader or a wine-drinker or an ice cream-eater or a wife or a daughter or a best friend or a grad student.

I think this is why I’ve had such a difficult time making a decision on what I’m going to do about working out. It shouldn’t be this hard, right? But it is hard, because I AM A CROSSFITTER AT FLOWER CITY CROSSFIT and if I lose part of that equation, then I lose part of my identity. Because even if I continue CrossFitting, but at a different box, my identity still changes slightly.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do with this recognition other than reassess where my identity really should live. Because honestly, I shouldn’t be finding my identity in any of those things, anyways. They’re all part of me, but they’re not ALL of me.

No answers today, just reflections.

How do you grapple with your identity as _____________ (fill in the blank here)? 

Okay friends, I am in a full-on exercise dilemma. (#FirstWorldProblems)

Here’s the issue:

I’ve only made it to CrossFit 1x per week the last two weeks. That is sad news and also a complete waste of money.  (I did, however, manage to fit in a run and a WOD during lunch last week).

Here are my options:

  • Quit CrossFit altogether. Join the local globo-gym that’s 5 minutes from my house and take classes like body pump and yoga.
  • Switch CrossFit boxes to one that’s closer. There’s one 2 minutes from our house, but I’ve heard mixed things. I visited it & am uneasy. Pros: It’s close. Small class sizes. Expanding soon into a bigger space.  I’ll probably make it there a few more times a week because it’s so convenient. They have a super cute puppy gym dog. Cons: It’s not Flower City CrossFit. I have to make new friends. And leave my current friends. They’re new and have a small space and lack of equipment until the space is expanded. And I’ve heard people who have had issues with getting along with the owner.  And I’ve heard the programming isn’t awesome.
  • Drop down to 2x per week at FCCF and go once during the week and once on the weekend. And supplement with running/WODs on my own. Because as much as I’d LIKE to be able to make it out to Henrietta more than once a week, I know it’s just not going to happen.
  • Drop down to 3x per week at FCCF and make CrossFitting more of a priority than sleep or homework.
  • Stop exercising. Eat pizza and drink wine. Gain back 30 pounds. (I do have to consider ALL options here!)

I like the last option, personally, but I’m pretty sure I’d be miserable.

I’m pretty sure I don’t want to switch CrossFit gyms. The cons list is way longer than the pros.  I WANT it to be awesome AND close, but that doesn’t mean it will be.

And I don’t think realistically I’m going to give up sleep or homework to make it in more often.

So that leaves me with dropping down to 2x per week or quitting altogether and spending way less money on classes that are not nearly as challenging or fun.

I’m not sure I want to quit CrossFit altogether. I mean, what else would I talk about on Facebook? And I would never feel sore anymore. And I would never be able to complain/brag about how sore my shoulders are from doing 100 push ups and how my pants are too tight in the butt because I’ve squatted too much. But 2x per week seems like so little.

If you were me, what would you do? 

Also, here’s our meal plan this week. Super simple.

Monday: Baked chicken breast with cauliflower rice and roasted broccoli. (Also baking chicken for salad night)

Tuesday: Salad night!

Wednesday:  Simple Paleo stuffed peppers.

Thursday: Venison steak with roasted vegetable medley of squash, onion, and brussels sprouts.

Friday: “Spaghetti” (spaghetti squash) and Paleo meatballs in red sauce. I’ve been craving spaghetti and meatballs.

Are these meal plans helpful for you? I feel like since we’re cooking very simply lately, there’s not much that’s exciting about our food. I might stop posting these unless they’re being used?

Lurong and Life Update

I am now more than half way through the Lurong Living Paleo Challenge, and I feel great!

It has been 4 weeks and 3 days (but who is counting?), and I noticed over the last few days that I just feel great in general. It wasn’t one morning that I woke up and felt better, but I think it just kind of snuck up on me and I didn’t realize that I was starting to feel different. It has been tough, don’t get me wrong, and right now I am craving a muffin and a beer, but it has definitely been worth it so far.

One of the biggest things I can see is the difference in my energy levels and performance. I lifted 20 pounds more on my front squat this morning than my previous personal record, which was only a few months ago. I’m feeling better in the middle of my workouts, and I’m not feeling as sluggish in the middle of the day. I’m still tired and stressed at times, but I attribute that mainly to work. It’s not like I’m a superhero or anything – I just feel better in general!

As for my goals, well, they’re hit or miss right now. I’ve successfully drank at least 100oz of water every day so far on this challenge, but my squat mobility work didn’t quite get there – I’m doing only about 4x a week compared to the 5x a week that I set for my goal. So I missed that one, but the good news is that I have already found improvement in that area. I haven’t done a lot of back squats yet, so I’m not sure if I’m going to get the 20# PR on my back squat like I hoped, but getting a 20# PR on my front squat this morning certainly gives me some hope. And it makes me think I set the wrong goal! My goal to improve my relationship with Meg is going well, and my goals not to have a single cheat and to be alcohol free for the challenge are also going strong.

This is us at CrossFit Webster doing the performance WOD #5 for the challenge. I am in the bright green all the way in the back mid-kip for an unassisted pullup! (Photo by Laura Rice, owner of CrossFit Webster)

This is us at CrossFit Webster doing the performance WOD #5 for the challenge. I am in the bright green all the way in the back mid-kip for an unassisted pull up! (Photo by Laura Rice, owner of CrossFit Webster)

As for my 2013 overall goals, I did hit one last month. I received a promotion at work, so I think I can check off “Make advancements professionally” from my goal list. I’m really excited about my new role at my company, and even though I set the goal, I really wasn’t expecting a job change this year. But, obviously, I’m happy about it and am excited that my hard work professionally is paying off.

With the new job, does come new responsibilities, and it has resulted in a lot of long hours at the office. I hate excuses, so please don’t read this as one, but this is one of the reasons my updates have been sporadic recently. I’m not asking for sympathy or a free pass, just explaining what is going on right now in our lives. Between Meg starting school again, my new job, and still trying to get to the gym and cook healthy food, our free time has been a little sparse. We will continue updating this blog as we can, especially because it is often therapeutic for us, but just giving you all a warning!

How are your goals going? Short term and long-term?

Meal Plan Monday!

So we’ve been total slackers the last week on our blog. I’ve been getting into a routine for grad school (hello, LOTS of READING) and Bob’s been getting into a routine of never rarely seeing me. Also, I attended an awesome conference last week (High Ed Web) so I wasn’t able to blog for a few days anyways.

Excuses, excuses. At least I’ve been getting my exercise in, although not much of it is CrossFit. I finally went back Thursday (hooray!) and was so happy to be back. I missed my CF friends. Unfortunately I was up too late Thursday so Friday morning didn’t happen.

However, Friday was so beautiful that I ended up taking a half day and spent an hour trail running at Durand Eastman Park. It was gorgeous. It took me a little under an hour to run 4 miles because I nearly killed myself on a root at the beginning… so I decided that walking/running was a better way to go. My wrist just started feeling better — I wasn’t about to sprain an ankle.

Gorgeous views on my run on Friday

Gorgeous views on my run on Friday

Sunday was a day full of reading and paper writing. Because I can’t read textbooks for three hours straight without wanting to fall asleep, I decided that at the end of every chapter I’d do 20 jumping jacks, 10 squats, and 10 push ups. That worked pretty well until I hit the beginning of chapter 9 and was going stir crazy.

Really thrilling content.

Really thrilling content.

Despite the fact that I had enjoyed a delicious pumpkin ale while I was reading, I headed out for a run with the pupster. Pro tip: don’t run after drinking a beer. Pro tip #2: if you DO run after drinking a beer, just accept the fact that you’ll be slow because your legs will be heavy and tired. 3 slow miles later, I was ready to go back to reading.

Stanley joined me after our run while I finished up some reading in our office.

Stanley joined me after our run while I finished up some reading in our office.

Couldn’t make it to CrossFit this morning because it was rainy and dark and I had some stomach issues (probably from running after beer-drinking), but I packed a bag and plan on doing the WOD over lunch at work, subbing out pull-ups for push-ups.

I was worried about fitting in exercise — and I still am worried about fitting in CrossFit (I think I’m going to drop down to 2x a week) — but running may just be my saving grace throughout grad school.  And the cardio room at work over lunch.

Because Bob & I were visiting his family this weekend, we made our meal plan on the back of a coupon for Dunkin’ Donuts. Hey, you do what you have to.


In case you can’t read my chicken scratch, here’s our (very simple) meal plan for the week:

Sunday: we ate leftovers Bob’s parents so graciously sent home with us. Butternut squash & sweet potato soup, sausage & onion & mushroom soup, turkey, and sauteed vegetables. Delicious.

Monday: Leftovers for lunch, and roasted vegetable medley of butternut squash, brussels sprouts, and delicata squash with baked chicken for dinner. (I’ll post a recipe soon for the vegetables. SO GOOD.)

Tuesday: Leftovers for lunch. Salad for Dinner. We’ve decided that Tuesday nights will be salad night because it’s something easy for me to pack to eat during class, and easy for Bob to eat while I’m not there.

Wednesday: Salad for lunch, Paleo Pad Thai for dinner. I’ll do the prep work for this tonight — roasting the spaghetti squash & making the sunshine sauce – because I have a happy hour Wednesday I’m going to so Bob is going to have to cook!

Thursday: Leftovers for lunch.  Hooray, we’re home together for dinner!! We’re making Paleo Nachos which are my FAVORITE easy meal. I’ll prep the chicken the night before — I use this recipe for the pulled chicken. Then I cut up bell peppers & top them with traditional nacho toppings (minus cheese, sour cream, etc.) using this recipe as inspiration. And of course, using homemade guac (recipe soon!) These are great for lunch the next day, too. YUM.

Friday: Baked fish, sauteed cabbage, cauliflower rice. (I always try to make fish on Fridays because I don’t like leftover fish for lunch the next day).

Saturday: Paleo potluck maybe? Or else we’ll figure something out.

What are you eating this week? How was your weekend?

Low Motivation

While Meg is missing CrossFit, I am having an opposite feeling.

I just don’t want to exercise.

I don’t. I feel kind of guilty, but I have just no motivation to make it to the gym. I did a lot last week, but so far this week today will be my third “rest day” in a row if I don’t get off my butt and get to the gym.

I don’t know what my problem is. My alarm was set yesterday and today, and I just consciously ignored it and decided not to go in the morning. My gym bag was packed yesterday, but I just didn’t feel like going after work. My gym bag was also packed today, but I just didn’t make it from Point A to Point B.

I’m not sleeping terrible, but I’m waking up kind of tired. My energy has been pretty low in general though. I was thinking that maybe it had to do with my paleo diet (like this article suggests) – maybe I’m not getting enough nutrients or something. But I’m eating like I usually eat for the most part, and I haven’t been this low energy before. And I definitely think I’m eating enough too.

It might be my stress level. I have recently started a new job – I got a big promotion at work and it has been awesome! But, the flipside has been it has involved long hours, and lots of stress. So, I feel more drained when I come home from work, and I’m having a hard time getting the energy or motivation to go to the gym. Which is a double edged sword, because exercising often gives me more energy and is a stress reliever.

So, here I am, stuck in a Catch-22 of having low motivation to exercise, when in all likelihood, exercise might give me more energy.

This is how I feel

This is how I feel

It doesn’t help that I’m also still sore from Saturday’s workout. The workout was a partner workout, so that means that the two of you work together or split up the work in some way. It was designed by our trainer who has the nickname “McNinja”, and I think it was pure evil:

1 Person working as 1 Person “Rests”
**If the resting partner breaks, the “active” partner must stop.

For time:
Run 800m Together
100 Burpee Wall Balls (20#) while “resting” person holds a plank
100 Pull Ups while “resting” person holds a 45# plate overhead
100 Kb Swings (53#) while “resting” person holds a hand stand
100 Push Press (95#) while “resting” person holds a squat position
200 Double Unders (split up – “resting” person actually can rest!)

It took my partner and I 43:17 to finish, and it was a loooong 43 minutes! I scaled the pull ups with a blue and red band, and I scaled the push press to 75#. The burpee wall balls/plank phase was by far the hardest part. “What is a burpee wall ball?” you might ask. It is a burpee. . .followed by a wall ball. And yes, it is just as terrible as you might think. But that wasn’t the worst part – the worst part was trying to hold a plank while your partner did that movement which took super long (imagine doing 100 burpees and 100 wall balls and how long that would take).

Anyway, my shoulders/arms are still sore, as you can see most of those movements involved some type of overhead movement.

But, those are just excuses. I just basically don’t want to go. So it’s a weird dichotomy in the Hartman household: Meg really wants to go to the gym, but can’t. And I don’t want to go to the gym, but can!

Do you ever just really not want to exercise? What do you do to get back into it again?

Missing CrossFit

So my wrist STILL isn’t healed which means my membership is on hold yet another week. I really miss CrossFit.

It’s still pretty tender and every time I pick something up that weighs more than a piece of paper it hurts. Blech. Also if I bend it. Not cool. So my guess is that lifting weights is a bad idea since I can’t even lift a baking sheet with squash on it at home.

Saturday I took the dog out for a run — we did some random sprinting intervals/running and ended up with about 4 miles. And then when I got back I did 10 rounds of 10 squats & 10 lunges (100 each total) because I wanted to be at the gym with Bob. It was sad, really, doing squats and lunges in my backyard, with no music and no one there to push me. Other than Stanley who barked at me like I was a crazy person before eventually losing interest.  But I felt sore yesterday and what’s even MORE sad is that I missed the feeling of soreness so much so that I was excited.

Gratuitous picture of Stanley after our run. He was wiped out.

Gratuitous picture of Stanley after our run. He was wiped out.

You know you’re addicted to CrossFit when…. you are happy your glutes are sore.

I plan on doing some more interval-type running/CrossFit stuff that doesn’t include use of my wrist this week. One of the CFEs this week is a 20 min AMRAP of run 400 meters/25 sit ups, which I could totally do on our track during lunch. I’m even thinking about tweaking it a little so it’s more like a 25 min amrap with some lunges & squats thrown in too, because, why not?

And when I asked my brother in law (who’s a physical therapist) if I could row with it he looked at me like I was crazy. So my excitement over finding the rower in our cardio room at work has been short-lived.

But! At least I can run. and the weather this week is GORGEOUS so I don’t have an excuse not to be enjoying the outdoors.


How was your weekend? Looking forward to beautiful weather for your area, too?

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