I have fallen off the clean eating wagon and my body hates me for it.
Here are just a few of the many symptoms that show me I need to clean up my act, and fast:
- All my pants tight. In fact, my “fat pants” that I reserve for “that time of the month” are even too tight.
- All I can wear are skirts and dresses. And I even feel uncomfortable in those.
- I have a zit on my chin. I NEVER get zits. I have been blessed with very clear skin. Except for when I eat like crap, apparently.
- I am super grumpy for no reason.
- I am tired ALL THE TIME, and I can’t sleep.
- My digestive system is all sorts of messed up.
- I don’t want to work out. I only made it to CrossFit twice last week, and I was super sore for days. Eat like crap = bad recovery.
So much sugar. So much dairy. So many grains. And while the last month of summer has been incredibly fun, it has also been incredibly unhealthy.
And it has finally caught up with me.
So, here’s my confession: I’m up to a weight I haven’t seen in a LONG time. And I feel generally really crappy about myself. I’ve been saying mean things to myself about how I’ve let myself go and how I look terrible, etc., etc., etc. WHY do we allow ourselves to say such terrible things to ourselves when we would NEVER say it to someone else? I would NEVER tell my best friend that she looks like hell because she’s gained 7 pounds in a month.
So here’s my second confession: from now on, I’m going to try to treat myself like I would treat my best friend. That includes reminding myself that it’s just a phase, that I’ll lose the weight quickly because I’m jumping back ON the wagon today (after the two(!!!!!!) whoopie pies I had for breakfast), and that the extra weight doesn’t make me a bad person. That the extra weight simply means I had a great summer, and I just need to refocus my priorities on fueling my body properly so I am a more pleasant person to be around.
And finally, if I was talking to my best friend, I’d tell her that she was beautiful no matter how tight her pants feel, and that she shouldn’t allow herself to be defined by her food choices. But that if she NEEDS to feel better about herself, she better start now instead of continuing to make excuses.
So I still have some events where I’m going to be making less than healthy choices (wedding, girls’ night, etc.) but that doesn’t meant that the surrounding days can’t be full of lean meats, lots of vegetables, and healthy fats.
Here’s me, getting back on the wagon. And hoping my pants will fit again soon, because I REALLY don’t want to go up a size.
How do you get yourself out of the cycle of eating poorly? How do you handle poor choices emotionally?
You are a smart beautiful person inside and out. With that being said WHY do we have such a love hate relationship with our body’s and scales . I think the reason I get mad at my self is I see other people that can pass on that food no matter what and feel less of a person when I fall off the wagon. I talked to you at length about my problem with diet cake I know there is nothing good in it for me , I have friends , family telling me to get off of it . And can’t get my self to do it. Good luck getting back to the healthier you. And do not beat your self up if you stumble a little along the way.
i am in the same place. i had an amazingly fun (and delicious) summer, but i am not happy with the number on the scale, which in turn makes me not happy with myself. thank you for the reminder that the scale should not define how i feel about and talk to myself.
ps we’re re-starting p90x and resuming our healthy eating today!
Good luck w/ p90x and healthy eating! 🙂 I believe in you!!
It’s a constant reminder to myself, too, to not hate on myself. So easy to do it to ourselves, and that is sad. I gave myself a pep talk today when a pair of pants were too tight and told myself that in ONLY A WEEK of eating better they will be a little less tight. Just trying to take it one day, one week, at a time.
The same exact thing just happened to me – all the same symptoms, zits for the first time since puberty, nothing but dresses/skirts, sleeping like crap, SUPER grumpy for no reason at all (my poor hubs lol).
So this week was my first “back on track” week (my most recent post talks a little bit about this too). I am focusing on lots of fruit and nuts to keep myself sane to replace the sugar and chips I was binge eating. This is not something I plan on continuing long term, BUT I figure that they are obviously better than what I was eating before. I will slowly wean myself off. My advice would be to do the same until you feel more “in control” and just BETTER.
I am already sleeping better and its only day 4 back on the rails! 🙂 You will too!
Yes! I’ve been eating mostly clean since the last three days and I feel great. I mean, I still have weight to lose, but my zits are going away, I feel more rested, and I feel back to being like a normal human again who doesn’t hate the world. At least I can treat this like a learning experience — eat like crap = feel like crap, eat good food = feel good.
Thanks for the encouragement. You’re right about the fruit & nuts — that’s a good idea. I was CRAVING something sweet last night so I had some frozen cherries with coconut milk. And then a spoonful of peanut butter when the cherries didn’t do it for me. But compared to what I was eating before, it was an improvement. haha.
Gosh, Meg. Two (!) whoopie pies for breakfast?!?! When you confess, you really confess, don’t you? Love you, your blog, and your honesty.